Monday, April 12, 2010

Fishing on the brain

Life is currently moving along quite nicely. I could use some prayers, though. I applied to a bunch of colleges to work! I don't know if I will get anything, but it's worth a shot. One school has emailed me three times now, and wants to do an online interview. That might just mean I would be put into their large pool of "acceptable adjuncts" but I will consider that an honor! :)
Besides filling out application after application, my life has been centered on fishing and friends. Yes, I still have school. And after wednesday of this week, my life will center only on work once again (sigh...) but last week, I enjoyed myself a bit. Paul had the week off, and we did some more yard work and had a lovely Asian-themed dinner party with Benji, Abby, and Rick. We played board games after and it was good food too...that Paul cooked! :)
Um, let's see. I am still getting over a nasty two week cold. And I love teaching.
I don't have much else to say right now, so off I go to do a bit more work and then get some lovely sleep...

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Easter Break

I have been enjoying my Easter break. Alot! It started out on a great note on Wednesday, when my students informed me that not only did I have thursday and friday off for Easter, but I also had Monday off! This was an unexpected blessing. There is nothing better, I think, then getting a surprise day off from work! :) I decided to celebrate the good news by taking some time off from my work to relax. It has been wonderful and greatly needed!
On Thursday, I slept in til 10:30am, partly because I have been sick and the extra sleeping helped me feel much better. I watched some TV, made cookies, cleaned a bit, and played my Sims 2 for a few hours. When Paul got home from school around 4pm, we went shopping and out to dinner. We then came home and watched an old movie with Chevy Chase called "Fletch". It was hilarious and I have nothing but praise for it!
On Friday, Paul started his spring break, so we actually had a school break at the same time! This has never happened since I started grad school (well, I suppose we share a few days off at Christmas...). I spent the morning changing the decorations in our house from winter stuff to spring stuff. It was a nice change. Then we went flyfishing together. It was our first time flyfishing, so we went on the Milwaukee river in an area away from the other fishermen so that we could learn. Flyfishing is a more talented kind of fishing, so it takes alot of practice. :) Of course, we didn't catch anything, b/c we were not near the fish (the fishermen all know the right places to actually catch the fish and we didn't want to be near them yet). But we spent a few pleasant hours wading in the river and soaking up the sun and getting to be pros at the art of flyfishing. It was SO relaxing! We are planning on going again on Monday, but this time to actually catch fish. We shall see what happens.
When we got back from fishing, we then went crazy working hard on our yard. Paul raked up debris, leaves, and dog poop while I destroyed the tiger lilies on the side of our house. We thought they were ugly flowers last spring, so I worked digging up the bulbs. It was hard work, but our yard is looking great! One or two more days of hard labor, and our yard will be perfect for the spring and summer. :)
After that, we went to a church activity for free pizza and then hung out with friends. Thus, a perfect day of me/Paul-only time, hard work on the house, and social time with friends.
Now, I am working on my homework again. It's hard to get back into it since I was enjoying my tw0 days off so much! Still, I have a few more nice hours ahead of me on my next two days off from school. Tomorrow is Easter, and a friend's family invited everyone over who doesn't have family in the area. So me, Paul, and two other friends from out of town are gathering together for an Easter dinner with someone else's family. I am touched at their kindness.
On Monday, Paul and I will fish again in the morning, and then I will work the rest of the day. Boo! Still, I must look forward to the good parts of the next few days, and rejoice that God has blessed me with a good home, great family/friends, and a wonderful husband! :) Happy Easter, Everyone!

Monday, March 22, 2010

School school school

I haven't written in a while and the reason is: School.
I also haven't: cleaned my house, done any chores, done my hobbies like sewing, knitting, playing piano and saxophone, playing guild wars with Paul, entertained guests at our home, read for fun, gone fishing, played with my dog, and various other things all because of: School.

The other day, Paul and I were talking and he asked me why I haven't played music in a long time. I told him that once school was done in May, I planned on doing everything that I love, including music. He (very gently and kindly) asked me if perhaps I use school as an excuse to stop living life. It was a good question.

I have also considered this question. I know that I always tell myself "I'll do such and such when school is done". Lately I have often wondered if this is true. Will I really live a more relaxing life when I am done with school? Who am I? Am I a workaholic? Am I a boring person who works during the day (and night) and sleeps a little in between? Will my strong personality and strong passions become revitalized this summer? These questions haunt me in between study-times. I am incredibly curious about what will happen when school ticks down in May. Seven more weeks of school before I find out who I am without it. It is quite nerve-wracking and I could use some prayers. The only thing I know for certain about myself is that I love God and Paul. I am ready to discover more...seven more weeks.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Because I always have an opinion...about everything

Two things happened yesterday or this morning that made my brain go crazy with opinions. Since I have nothing serious to write about right now, I thought I would share my silly opinionated self on random tangents in my life. :)

#1) The Winter Olympics
This morning, the radio guy explained that NBC, who rather hesitatingly decided to host the winter olympics, made tons and tons of money on the Olympics this year, and that this winter olympics were the most watched winter event EVER.
My rant: Well of course NBC made off great with the Olympics. Did anyone else notice that ALL of the networks stopped running normal shows during the entire thing?!?! No one says that it's because of the Olympics, but this week all of my fave shows are starting up again. I smell controversy!!! I think NBC secretly controls all of the other networks and forced them to stop putting on shows. That way, everyone was FORCED to watch those boring and lame olympics because there was nothing else on!!! Is this the end of capitalism as we know it?!?! Dun dun dun... :) Just to let you all know, this probably won't surprise you a bit, but since I figured the networks weren't putting on my shows to force me to watch the olympics, I refused to watch a single event!!! Yeah, take that, networks! I refuse to be pushed around! Laugh, oh boy, I can't believe I have such an opinion on this, but that's just my personality. I suppose the real concern here should be that I have so many fave shows and that I was going crazy without them... :)

#2) Fantastic Mr. Fox-the movie
Yesterday night, Paul and I watched Fantastic Mr. Fox. I was skeptical, since it was a cartoon movie with ugly animations, which I normally dislike. However, Paul told me that it got rave reviews from the critics, so we watched it. I must admit, parts of it were delightfully and surprisingly funny. Overall, as an ADULT movie, it was great. However, cartoons aren't normally made for adults, and I am unsure who the audience was supposed to be for this film. Was this supposed to be a children's movie? Because if so, I am incredibly concerned about what this movie says symbolically about the future generation of America. First, I raised a brow at the movie's casual and funny protrayal of murder. Mr. Fox kills the chickens in a humorous atmosphere. I can't remember a Disney movie or other cartoon movie that was so happy-go-lucky about murder. Second, the movie is lighthearted about stealing. Unlike Robinhood, who steals for a "right" reason (which is a debatable children's topic anyway), Mr. Fox steals b/c he wants to get rich quick and has all sorts of lame excuses for why stealing is okay. And he never learns a lesson about why stealing is wrong! Third, "animal instinct" is mentioned over and over. Are the directors trying to make a theme in the movie about the animalistic ways of humanity? Are they praising this aspect of humanity? I don't know what to think about that. Finally, I had a HUGE problem with the casual usage of swearing. The directors/writers try to make light of swearing by saying "cuss" instead of an actual swear word. Example: Mr Fox: "Why the cuss are the farmers trying to cussing kill us?!" While this is possibly humorous as an adult movie theme, I do not think this is right for a children's film. It is making light of the severity of swearing and it happens so much in the movie, that I am concerned kids will start quoting it! Swearing is a problem in our society, and I don't think a movie (the way to connect with kids these days) should make it seem funny to swear. So if you have kids, you might not want them to see this movie. Or maybe I am exaggerating. I suppose it would be a great movie to debate with your kids. Watch it as a family, enjoy the good parts, and then talk about the bad parts. Anyone who reads this, please let me know what you think.

Well, that is enough of my silly, lighthearted rants for the day. :)
~Cris

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Brooding

I won't get into details, but for the first time in my life I am struggling with accomplishing my goals in a way that works with reality. While thinking about my goals, I am getting pressured from all sides. In the midst of confusion and chaos, I am starting to forget what I originally wanted. Does it matter anymore? Should I follow a trend? What do I want in life?
A) The easy way, with lots of money, so that I can retire early. A life with no extra thinking, just go through the motions...but with lots of money.
B) The hard way, with little money and no foundation, but a (possibly) happier and thought-provoking lifestyle...but additional stress.
C) The harder way, with a slight promise of more future rewards, but in the meantime, no social life, no leisure time, little money, but the end result of following my (old?) dreams...

It's a dark, brooding semester for me because of all of this. Please pray for me and Paul as we discuss my (our) future.
~Cris

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Pet Peeves

Issue #1
Okay, so I don't like to gossip or be catty. But I really have to complain about some things that are bothering me, and I figure: if I can't whine on my own blog than I will start whining in my journal book again. It's one or the other. And this is easier.
I hate it when people are so obsessed with their phones. I think it is very rude when you are hanging out with people and they all take their phones out and start texting other people. I don't know if anyone learns manners anymore, but I think children should learn different manners now than back when I was growing up. And I think most of the new mannerisms that these kids should learn deal with computers/technology. Here are some examples from real life in the last few weeks that I find rude and almost insulting:

(A)Boardgame night at our house. 8 people around a table. We are ALL playing a game. Suddenly, one person gets a text and takes out their phone to text back. Then five more people (no joke) take out THEIR phones to text people. Silence all around as these six out of eight people text others that aren't even here(!!) instead of having a conversation and good time with the PEOPLE IN THE ROOM WITH THEM!!! "Sorry," one says, "I just HAD to answer." The others nod. "Yeah," another says, "I just remembered something that I had to tell someone."
Well, I won't take your apologies, people. What you just did was a great insult to my hospitality. I am trying to be social by providing a clean house, food, drinks, games, and my attempts at being friendly, and you answer this hospitality by writing secret messages to other people. That is rude and needs to be fixed.

(B)Superbowl party. 8 people in a room. Watching football TOGETHER and eating, etc. Not only did six people have their phones out CONSTANTLY, but sometimes, I think they were gossip-texting each other(!!). It hurts even more when I wonder if it is about me. Example: The Who band was playing. People were giving their opinions about them as a band, etc. I say: "I wish superbowl could find younger bands to play. The Who is pretty old and I think they are past their prime for live entertainment." Suddenly, three people take out their phones and text someone. And then they all get texts back from those mystery people at the same time, etc. Hmm...makes me wonder if it is just coincidence that they all had the urge to text and also get responses back at the same time. I know I am an opinionated person, but just bitch back at me instead of getting all nasty. Even if they were NOT texting each other, even if it was just one nasty coincidence, this situation shows why using phones when around others is rude. I should not worry that people are doing that in front of me. I should not worry about being more interesting than a phone/other people not in the room. It is just so incredibly rude and not necessary.

Since boardgame night, Paul and I have made it a rule that no cell phones may be used upon entering our house unless under emergency or it's a common sense thing. However, even when we had people over with this rule, they keep their phones under their hands and watch it constantly like something super super urgent is happening and they just HAVE to know. Phones seem to have some control over people now. It is really sad.
I am out of ideas for handling this situation and could use some advice. Am I overexaggerating? Should I be more bold and tell them to stop being so rude? Should I sit meekly by while these stupid phones take over their lives? Should I stop hanging out with these rude people? Should I become Amish?


Issue#2
Unfortunately, I have more than one annoyance in my life right now. Grr...
I am part of a small group/Bible study. All of my life, I have hated Christian peer groups. This all start when I was a child. In sunday school, "Christian" kids were mean to me because I had glasses and was homeschooled. Even though I was nice and never did anything to deserve it, they would do some nasty mean things to me. Then I would go home in tears, and hang out with friendly public school kids all week long. In middle school, my parents stopped homeschooling and put me in a Christian private school. Naively, I thought they would be great for me, since by then the public school kids were getting rebellious and naughty. However, once again, "Christian" kids excluded me and treated me like crap because I had glasses and wore crappy clothes(?). Even though the public school kids were smoking and joining gangs, they at least gave everyone a shot. Ever since then, I have hated how Christians act in a group. How they exclude people (even fellow Christians) for stupid things like appearances or quirky personalities. I promised myself even when I was a child that I would NEVER exclude ANYONE from anything. And so far, I have kept to that promise.
However, now there seems to be a dilemma. Some of the people in my small group are getting together after meetings or on the weekends, etc., and inviting other people from small group...but not everyone. When Paul and I have social activities at our house, we always announce the outings on the small group facebook page so that EVERYONE is invited. True, usually only the same 8-10 people show up, but it is important to me that the opportunity is put out there. A few of the small group people, though, are making social activities and giving out personal invitations to certain people that they like. For some reason (the first time in my life), I am in the "in" crowd. I hate it. I get somewhere and ask why such-in-such person is not there. The response: "Oh, I don't like that person. I only invite the people from our group that I like." Then I spend the rest of the night feeling guilty. To me, I know that some of us in small group click more as friends, but I think that as long as we are a small group, there should be no exclusion. Then, maybe this summer, when group is officially over, do what you want. But maybe I am wrong and exaggerating again. Am I being too sensitive to this issue b/c I know what it's like? Is it okay to do things with just friends even if you are all part of the same small group? Am I right or am I wrong? Does it depend on the situation? I am struggling with this one. I don't know if I should go to these parties if someone is being excluded. It is that "justice-hero" part of me that my mom always told me she was proud of. Should I go to these parties if people are excluded like this? Please let me know what you think. I am stumped. I need alot of prayers...

~Cris

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Spring Schedule

My Spring semester is now in full swing. At this time, I cannot say if it will be better or worse or the same as last semester, but let's all hope that it is better! My medieval grad class has tons of homework every week, and my other two classes both have homework assignments of one book a week. Blegh. I am also concerned b/c I get up early three times a week. That is just awful for me since I am not a morning person. Anyway, before I slip into a worrisome and depressed state of mind, here is a preview of my semester:

Monday:
8:15-9:45am: office hours
10-11am: My students' lecture (I am required to be there)
11am-noon: bus ride
1pm-4pm: Homework

Tuesday:
9am-11am: Homework
noon-1pm: bus ride
2-4pm: Grad class on Crime and Justice in Early Modern Europe
4-6pm: Grad class on English colonists and Indians in pre-revolutionary America

Wednesday:
8-9am: Discussion Section (I teach)
9am-noon: Homework on campus *or* 10-11am: Lecture
Noon-1pm: Discussion Section
1-2pm: Discussion Section

Thursday:
9-11am: Homework
noon-1pm: Bus ride
2-4pm: Grad class on gender and power in medieval Europe

Friday:
8:15-9:45am: office hours
10-11am: Lecture
11am-noon: Bus ride
1pm-4pm: Homework

I am sure I will end up doing even more homework on the weekends. This is the first full week of classes, and I have already started doing homework after dinner. This is annoying b/c I enjoy hanging out with my husband in the evenings. Please pray that I survive this semester!